I applied about 4 years ago on my own for disability benefits based on my many issues. It became impossible for me to work at all about 8 years ago. My application was not approved. At this time I sought out a disability advocate to represent me. They filed the appeal which was denied. In truth I have been suffering from my conditions for over 30 years & have gone through a myriad of medications. My advocate listed my onset as 8 years ago when I could no longer work. The appeal filed through my advocate was denied. I have been under constant doctors care since I applied & also seeing a therapist. After the appeal was denied, my advocate set up a hearing with ODAR face to face with an ALJ, having a vocational expert on the phone during the hearing. When the hearing rolled around, all my doctors provided written opinions that I am unable to work & a list of my current medications. I felt so hopeful because of the strong support from my doctors & therapists & the fact my hearing was face to face with the judge & it would be obvious to him of difficulty to control my emotions or even comprehend the questions. I was subsequently denied, again. My advocate talked to an attorney who said we should send in a request for reconsideration based on the fact that the ALJ gave no merit to my doctors statements. The request for reconsideration was submitted to the appeals council 8 months ago. My mental health continues to deteriorate & I have been put on 4 addional drugs. It has been suggested to me by my doctor that when I need to, I go to treatment at a hospital, which scares me. What more can I do??? If I did not beleive I needed disabbilty assistance I would not have applied for it. I am at my wits end & feel like I am on the verge of another nervous breakdown. For the record, I am 57 years old.